Challenges and Changes – What’s Going On?

The Butterfly Editions Cable Bay - 1Oh hey there! How’s it going? Good, I hope.

I guess its about time for a little update. If you have still been popping by, you might have noticed that I haven’t been hanging around here lately.

Where on earth am I? What happened? What’s going on?

I really didn’t expect to ever have to write a post like this, and to be honest, I’ve been putting it off tremendously. But, I feel like these words simply have to come out before I can carry on.

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When you last heard from me, Alan and I were happily exploring Cambodia – then all of a sudden I seem to have fallen off the blogging radar. I haven’t posted on my blog, have barely looked at my Instagram, Twitter, Facebook and all those things we seem to think are so important – but that I’ve quickly come to realise at a time like this they are right at the very bottom of my priorities…and actually make me feel worse.

I had to return home for health reasons, requiring an unexpected and fairly major surgery. By the time I arrived home I remember saying that I’d cried so much that I’d literally run out of tears. I think most of the tears are for my travel dream, that now feels like its been shattered into a million pieces just out of my reach.

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I left my spirit in Asia. Thats the best way I’ve been able to describe how I feel right now.

I gave up so much to follow this dream and I guess I just feel cheated. I gave up a stable job, a decent income and my comfortable home to chase this dream I’d had for as long as I can remember – and to have returned this much earlier than planned feels like…failure.

Deep down, I know that I’m very lucky. I could have had long-term health implications. I could have had no “home” to return to. For goodness sake, I travelled through Asia for more than six months – a continent where many will never leave their own village, let alone their country. I’m indescribably privileged to be able to consider travel as an option, not to mention be freely on the move constantly for as long as Alan and I did.

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I’ve taken a long break from my blog. The honest truth? It’s been too upsetting for me to reflect on our travels, too difficult to write these words, too many tears escaping every time my mind revisits my incomplete travels.

However, it’s time to carry on with what I started. I’m digging deep into my dreams, adapting my plans, moving onwards and upwards. There are plenty of posts to come here on the Butterfly Editions, along with some exciting changes over the next few months.

So, there’s the simplified version of the story. For the time being, Alan and I are living in my hometown of Nelson, New Zealand. It hasn’t been an easy few months, and I’m still not quite finished dealing with what happened yet. Fake it till you make it, right? But hey, we all get there in the end, don’t we!

Some life changes look negative and painful on the surface, but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new and beautiful to emerge.

– Eckhart Tolle

For those of you that continue to follow along with my journey – thank you. I sure hope you stick around for whats to come!

Christie xx



12 Responses to Challenges and Changes – What’s Going On?

  1. Sarah says:

    I’d been wondering!! Can’t imagine how devastating the last few months must have been for you. All the best and will certainly keep following to see what comes next x

    • Christie says:

      Thanks Sarah, you’re too kind! It’s been a very challenging time but am definitely moving onwards and upwards now 🙂

  2. Tiffany says:

    Oh dear! Hopefully you’re on the mend now, physically and spiritually. Hopefully the best is still yet to come for you my dear xx

  3. Kelly says:

    Hi Christie, this is my first comment on your blog but I’ve read quite a few of your posts from your travels. I’m so sorry to hear your news, I can only imagine how disappointed you must feel!! I know you’re probably still feeling discouraged and this may not help much, but at least you’re young and have your entire life ahead of you, so you never know what kind of opportunities you still have ahead of you! I have no doubt you will have more opportunities to travel long-term if you put your mind to it!

    • Christie says:

      Hi Kelly, thanks so much for taking the time to comment and your kind words 🙂 I’m trying to remind myself that there is still plenty of time to travel, and the world is always going to be there for exploring. It has been tough coming home so unexpectedly but I am trying to make the most of it while continuing to dream up of lots of exciting plans for the future! Thanks again Kelly 🙂

  4. Sal says:

    I stumbled on your blog a month or so back. As a fellow NZer (Christchurch born and bred) and have been travelling/working in Canada/USA since March 1st with my fiance… your blog really gelled with me!! Usually travel blogs inspire you for one paragraph then trail off into nothing. Something about what you’re writing made me want to actually follow your journey. If there’s one thing that stands out in your posts is that you’re a TOUGH chick! Whatever you’re going through right now, you will ride it out. Just keep doing whatever makes you happy, however big or small. Remember what you missed from back home while you were away and focus on having that back in your life. (I’d give SO MUCH to be able to try that jellytip chocolate going around right now haha) It’s the simple things. Keep being awesome! x

    • Christie says:

      Sal, thanks so much for such a kind message! Your encouragement comes at the perfect time, my poor blog has taken a major backseat in my life at the mmoment 🙂 thank you! Now that you mention it, I haven’t even tried the jellytip chocolate yet, can you believe it! I need to get to the supermarket asap haha. Hope you are having an incredible time on your travels and thanks so so much for your message, it means so much to me 🙂 x

  5. Hey Christie, I’m so sorry to hear this! I had been wondering why you had stopped writing, and didn’t expect to hear this. I hope that you can come to terms with pursuing a life in NZ, for now, and hopefully get back travelling sometime in the future. I look forward to reading more posts to come 🙂 x

    • Christie says:

      Hey Petra! Thank you for your kind comment. Despite the lack of posting on the blog, I’ve getting back into the swing of things in NZ and remembering that we are pretty lucky to be able to call NZ home 🙂 x

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